I go out looking happy as ever trying to hide my sadness and sorrow from my friends, my family and basically anyone that I know will want to help me get through this.
There are some people who see me and really see the emptiness and sadness within me. They ask what’s wrong? They ask are you okay? and I reply with “I’m fine.” I always reply with” I’m fine” convincingly. I wonder how to answer them when I also don’t know what’s wrong with me. It’s not like I don’t want to talk about it, I just don’t know what to say.
I smile not because I’m happy, but sometimes I smile to hide sadness.kiki
When I am sad I wanna know how to overcome it but when my lips are busy laughing and screaming in happiness, then I don’t find any problem with me. How do I talk about what I have no clue? I’ll rather put on my smile and act like I’m okay and happy.
Sometimes it gets tiring when I try to pretend I’m okay and deep down I just want someone to see through my facade and figure me out. I don’t like the emptiness I feel. I want to genuinely feel happy.